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Monday, May 31st, 2010

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    1:23a
    I can't do any of that I can't see any other way,...
    I can't do any of that
    I can't see any other way, MelI wonder how I didn't see it soonerIt seems so completely
    obviousf courseI have to give you yourself backI already knew we
    souls were wrong to come hereSo I don't have any choice now but to do the right thing, and
    leaveYou all survived without me before; you'll do it againYou've learned so much about the
    souls from me–you'll help themCan't you see? This is the happy endingIt's the way they all
    need the story to finishI can give them… not a future
    But as much as I can
    She was crying, becoming incoherentHer sorrow brought tears vintage cartier watch to my eyesI'd no idea that she
    cared so much for meAlmost as much as I cared for herI hadn't realized that we loved each
    other
    Even if Jared had never asked me for this, even if Jared did not exist… Once this path had
    occurred to me, I would have had to proceed down itI loved her that much
    No wonder the success rate for resistant hosts was so low here on EarthOnce we learned to
    love our human host, what hope did we souls have? We could not exist at the expense of one
    we lovedA soul could not live that way
    I rolled myself over and, in the starlight, I looked at my body
    My hands were shop prada handbags dirty and scratched, but under the surface blemishes, they were beautifulThe
    skin was a pretty sun-browned color; even bleached in the pale light, it was prettyThe nails
    were chewed short but still healthy and smooth, with little half moons of white at the basesI
    fluttered my fingers, watching the muscles pull the bones in graceful patternsI let them dance
    above me, where they became black fluid shapes against the stars
    I ran them through my hairIt was almost to my shoulders nowAfter a
    few weeks of shampoo in hotel showers and Health vitamins, it was glossy and soft again
    I omega automatic seamaster watch stretched my arms out as far as they would go, tugging against the tendons until some of my
    joints crackedThey could pull me up a mountainside, they could carry a
    heavy load, they could plow a fieldBut they were also softThey could hold a child, they could
    comfort a friend, they could love… but that was not for me
    I took a deep breath, and tears welled out of the corners of my eyes and rolled down my temples
    into my hair
    I tensed the muscles in my legs, felt their ready strength and speedI wanted to run, to have an
    open field that I could race across just to see how fast I could goI chanel costume jewelry wanted to do this barefoot,
    so I could feel the earth beneath my feetI wanted to feel the wind fly through my hairI wanted
    it to rain, so that I could smell it in the air as I ran
    My feet flexed and pointed slowly, to the rhythm of my breathing
    I traced my face with my fingertipsThey were warm on my skin, skin that was smooth and
    prettyI was glad I was giving Melanie her face back the way it had beenI closed my eyes and
    stroked my eyelids
    I'd lived in so many bodies, but never one I loved like thisNever one that I craved in this way
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    1:50a
    The woman's name was harriet Stewart, her...
    The woman's name
    was harriet Stewart, her husband's Daniel KellyThat was all Scarlett
    knew until Daniel Kelly was in the closed coffin inside the Catholic
    ChapelThen the widow, who had spoken only to answer the priest's
    questions, looked around her with wild, darting eyes"Billy, where's
    Billy? Ne should be here The priest found out that there was a son,
    locked in a room at the hotel to keep him away from the flogging
    "They were very kind," said the woman, "they let me pay with my
    wedding
    ring, though it's not gold
    "I'll bring him," Scarlett said
    "Father? You'll take care of MrsKelly?"
    "That I willBring a bottle of brandy, too, MrsThe poor
    lady's near breaking
    "I vintage omega watches will not break down," harriet Kelly saidI must take
    care of my boyNe's such a little boy, only eight Her voice was
    thin and brittle as new iceBilly Kelly was a
    sturdy blond boy, big for his age, loud with angerAt his captivity
    behind the thick locked doorAt the British soldiers
    "I'll get a rod of iron from a smithy and smash their heads till they
    shoot me," he shoutedThe innkeeper needed all his burly strength to
    hold the boy"Don't be a fool, Billy Kelly!"
    Scarlett's sharp words were like cold water thrown in the child's
    face
    "Your mother needs you, and you want to add to her grief
    What kind of man are you?" The innkeeper could release him then"Where is my mother?" he chanel jewelry said, and he sounded as
    young and frightened as he was"Come with me," said Scarlett
    harriet Stewart Kelly's story was revealed slowlyShe and her son had
    been at Ballyhara for more than a week before Scarlett learned even
    the
    bare bones of itDaughter of an English clergyman, harriet had taken
    a post as assistant governess in the family of Lord WitleyShe was
    well educated, for a woman, nineteen, and completely ignorant of the
    worldOne of her duties was to accompany the children of the house
    on
    their rides before breakfastShe fell in love with the white smile
    and playful lilting voice of the groom who also accompanied them
    When
    he asked her to run away with him, she thought old omega watches it the most romantic
    adventure in the worldThe adventure ended on the small farm of
    Daniel Kelly's fatherThere were no references and so no jobs for a
    runaway groom or governessDanny worked the stony fields with his
    father and brothers, harriet did what his mother told her to do, for the
    most part scrubbing and darningShe had mastered fine embroidery
    as
    one of the accomplishments necessary to a ladyThat Billy was her
    only child was testimony to the death of the romance
    Danny Kelly missed the world of fine horses in grand stables and the
    dashing striped waistcoat, top hat, and tall leather boots that were a
    groom's dress liveryhe blamed harriet for his fall from fendi spy bags grace,
    consoled himself with whiskeyHis family hated her because she was
    English, and ProtestantDanny was arrested when he attacked an
    English officer in a barHis family gave him up for dead when he was
    sentenced to a hundred stripes of the whipThey were already
    holding
    the wake when harriet took Billy's hand and a loaf of bread and set out
    to walk the twenty miles to Trim, the site of the insulted officer's
    regimental barracksShe pled for her husband's lifeShe was
    granted
    his body for burial"I'll take my son to England, MrsO'hara, if you
    will lend me the fareMy parents are dead, but I have cousins who
    might give us a homeI'll repay you from my wagesI'll find some
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